Clear Night

My first update is about Monday night, when I was lucky enough to go to a Family Home Evening where Elder Jeffrey R. Holland came and spoke to us. It was absolutely amazing and I almost cried because of how effective this was in my life at the time. It was exactly what I needed. I almost skipped FHE too, but I am so grateful that I was led to go. He said a lot of things that related to exactly how I felt and I needed to hear those words, there is no doubt that the Lord wanted me there and that I needed to be there. One thing that really stuck out to be was when Elder Holland said, "Don't run". We all know that's very difficult for me. But his words were too powerful. He continued and these are the quotations I wrote down:

"Never give up, never give in"

"Fight the good fight"

"Don't flee.....battle forward"

"Hang in and hang on"

Basically I need to stop running away from my battles and face them head on. I need to fight, and 'fight the good fight'.

My next update is from Tuesday night when my friend Ben asked me if I wanted to go running. I decided to run with him despite my hurt heel and my slowness (guys are always faster than me). It was good though because I told myself that I didn't want to be slow and didn't want to make a fool of myself. I wasn't going to stop or slow down unless he did. This was a good way to push myself. I tried to keep a fairly good pace that he wouldn't mind. We ran about 3.58 miles, and I felt like we did that pretty quickly. So I learned that it's good to run with guys because they make me a little faster (mostly so I don't embarrass myself). But I also learned that maybe I really can run faster, I just don't push myself as much as I thought.

I haven't been running away from anything in particular. Just the usual life anxieties I guess. There's something big coming up in my life I feel. Graduation yes, but there's something else. I need to make sure that I focus. And when I have to battle, I need to make sure not to flee. Be strong and right. Run toward it, not away from it.

Runaway Girl